so i staid up late last night setting up my blog and what not .today i woke up by noon "/ why I'm in bed until so late on aSaturday in the middle of summer ? well .. I'm far away from my closest friend& my boyfriend . this summers has been the worst one of my life ; i haven'thad true fun just been filled with issues & problems , theres not much to do out here & with no one to do it & even if there was i wouldn't be in the mood for it .
but yesterday night my mind or whatever it is that create dreams made a magical effecton me ; i had a dreamed of a party , a happy party filled with people that i know .there where friends some family members , every one looked nice .. in dreams everything is possible so lets just say that some funny twist happened .
i try to analyze the dream but cant come up with a logical explanation .i saw old friends , people that are no longer in my life . i saw new friendsi saw who i wanted to see & despite the happiness i felt when i woke up i was disappointed .. it leads me to think that maybe i still want those people in my lifethat maybe all i need to feel complete are times like those again .
but i know deep in my heart that is best if those people are gone , theres a reason they dint made it to my future ; so they must stay in the past .but i do have hope that someday soon what was a typical event in my life [ & now is just a dream ] happens all over again .. maybe not with all the same people but hopefully withthe same happiness .
but yesterday night my mind or whatever it is that create dreams made a magical effecton me ; i had a dreamed of a party , a happy party filled with people that i know .there where friends some family members , every one looked nice .. in dreams everything is possible so lets just say that some funny twist happened .
i try to analyze the dream but cant come up with a logical explanation .i saw old friends , people that are no longer in my life . i saw new friendsi saw who i wanted to see & despite the happiness i felt when i woke up i was disappointed .. it leads me to think that maybe i still want those people in my lifethat maybe all i need to feel complete are times like those again .
but i know deep in my heart that is best if those people are gone , theres a reason they dint made it to my future ; so they must stay in the past .but i do have hope that someday soon what was a typical event in my life [ & now is just a dream ] happens all over again .. maybe not with all the same people but hopefully withthe same happiness .
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